Set Your Own Bar

This may be obvious to you, but you are the one who makes the decision about whether you’re a success.

You set the bar.

But, if you grew up with narcissistic or abusive or drug/alcohol-addicted parents, or even just highly successful parents who have meant well, you may have been told what and where the bar is, and may still be trying to reach that bar rather than your own. 

There could also be a feeling you received in your family that you were never good enough. This may have left you searching for the bar outside yourself. Now, you might find that bar (that perfect way of being) in coworkers or friends, or mentors. It has a way of taking over.

There is also a fine line between accepting your success and moving forward toward more personal or professional growth. If you don’t expect much, you may feel malaise, depression, boredom, or inertia. But, if you push yourself too hard, you may be constantly striving and never arriving, never enjoying what you've created.

Whether it’s something general like being “good enough” or specific like a set amount of money, it’s still out of your control when you let someone else define it for you. This may be a matter of priority, where you put your energy.

You might also experience that the bar of success changes arbitrarily, if you have a parent who needs to be the winner/expert. And, no matter how old you are, you may still be trying to please your parents. But, do you realize that? 

Part of the issue is that people sometimes don’t realize that this is happening, because it’s been going on for so long. As people, we don’t realize we have choices, that it’s not about not being good enough, but instead about switching the focus from someone else’s priorities to our own.

Examples: 

A daughter who believes she has to make a lot of money or marry someone wealthy rather than who she loves in order to please her wealthy parents. She weighs her success against what her parents want for her rather than what she wants for herself, which is love and connection, first and foremost. However, her need to please comes before her own desires. This need to please has its place; in order to stay in connection with her parents, she makes a sacrifice on her own needs. 

A son who has pursued his love of photography but secretly wishes his parents, who want him to be a doctor, could be proud of him, and each phone call home is a reminder of the difference in values and his wish to be accepted for who he is. Even though he is living his dream, until he realizes that the bar he holds is his parents', he won’t be freed. 

Part of the issue for people can be a strong wish to be similar to parents and to stay in connection with parents, above doing something outside what the family wants (or needs) from them.

Or, it could occur by comparing yourself to that perfect coworker or a couple comparing themselves to That Perfect Couple down the street or whose house they go to for parties (a great example of this is in the novel, Music For Torching by A.M. Homes where a couple thinks their lives are boring and that they're terrible parents in comparison to friends who seem to have it all, until they see from inside!).

Therapy then, becomes about realizing this tug-of-war between your authentic self and what you've been shown, told, or perceive you need to achieve. It's all about creating empowerment through appreciation, authentic connection, insight, and choice.

Think about it now:

Are you weighing your life against what your parents (or caretakers, or role models) have or against what you want for yourself? 

Take a moment and ask, what do I want for myself? 

Take inventory. How close are you to achieving it, or, do you have it now? 

What will it take for you to switch the bar from the one your parents/caretakers have wanted for you versus what you want for yourself?

·   Make a list of what you want for yourself. Be specific.

·   What have your parents/caretakers believed?

·   How is it different?

    When you appraise your life now from the eyes of your own measures, what do you see? 

    What, specifically, is holding you back?

·   What is one step you can take today, either toward accepting your success or moving toward it?

    Dr. Heather Schwartz is a relational and mindfulness-oriented psychologist in Portland, Oregon who works with warm and expressive people seeking connection, meaning, and empowerment in their lives. 


   http://www.heatherschwartzpsyd.com

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