Posting in Opposition to Perfectionism

So, I was thinking about how to begin this post, and I thought, "I don't know how to start it, so I'll just wait until I have a better beginning."


Ironically, this post is about perfectionism and procrastination.


So, I'll start there. I'll begin with the truth. Even though I am a therapist (and, therefore, in my mind, should know better), the truth is, I still struggle with perfectionism and procrastination. I really want these posts to be new, memorable and meaningful. I want them to be useful to you, and, dare I say, it, Creative. I want them to be user-friendly.


And, yet, I also want them to live up to the standard I have in my head of all the great posts out there: you know the ones; they're either funny or poignant or both. They say something old in a new way, like a comedian, or they say something totally profoundly interesting that we've never thought of, which gets our dopamine activated! In fact, it's our search for something new that increases dopamine not just the thing itself! This is the dopamine feedback loop: search for information --> dopamine --> increased motivation --> search for more info --> dopamine. YAY!


It feels good.


Which is why we search for information.


Which is why I want this post to be useful and not boring or cliched. For most of us, just the act of putting something out there to the world is an act of bravery.


And, it's exactly this striving for perfection (whatever that is) + judgement/comparison = procrastination. We stop. We get in our own way. 


Sometimes this happens when we start and realize we don't know where we're heading. As Peter Bregman in his post on the Harvard Business Review Blog notes,(http://blogs.hbr.org/bregman/2012/06/the-emotional-adventure-of-lea.html) sometimes you have to get lost to be found. And, when you admit it, it makes you a stronger leader.Cool. I can feed that to my inner critic! 


He writes, "It takes tremendous confidence to lead. Not the confidence of having all the answers — that's arrogance — but the confidence to move forward even without the answers. You have to be capable of feeling awkward and uncertain without giving up."


What have you given up that you want to re-start?


For me, it's this post that I began last week. Yup, it's true.


So, I'm writing this post today and dedicating it to all you perfectionists out there! I'm not putting it off for another day! Whatever you're wanting to do, whether it be small or large, break it down into small steps. Tell yourself it's better to do it, to start it today, right now in fact, than to leave it unfinished or never started.That's the power of a leader.


As one of my favorite Martha Graham quotes goes, "There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. ..."


Why the hell not?!


Keywords: procrastination, perfectionism, motivation, creativity, leadership, psychology, psychotherapy, coaching, wellness, confidence, self-esteem, inspiration, Peter Bregman.


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The Ironies of Kindness

Sometimes, you just can’t help but do a good thing. A man in the small town of Prineville, Oregon was trying to pry a mouse from the jaws of stray cat he’d befriended, (an often occurrence for most cat owners), and contracted The Plague. Yes, that’s right: Black Death here in Oregon. It’s shocking. Apparently, there are three types of Plagues: one that affects the lymph nodes, (Bubonic), one that affects the lungs, (Pneumonic), and the third, (Septicemic), that affects the blood stream (Septicemic), which is the one this man contracted. Rodents sicken with The Plague due to the fleas that live on their bodies, and when house pets roam outside and seek their prey, we humans become susceptible.  Symptoms for humans include: fever, chills, bloody coughing, and a near-fatal response. The man is in critical condition. Scary! And all for trying to do something nice: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/hitchhiker-writing-book-kindess-americans-shot-authorities-article-1.1096407

On the flip side, a West Virginia photographer who took to the road, hitchhiking his way across the country, on a project to write a book on Kindness, shot himself in the arm and then blamed it on someone else who was arrested for felony. What the hell? Ironically, he says he was looking for kindness in America. He created its opposite! http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/hitchhiker-writing-book-kindess-americans-shot-authorities-article-1.1096407 Oh, the ironies of “kindness”! Sometimes what we say we’re looking for is a far cry from what we’re hoping or working to find. (e.g. We tell ourselves we want a kind boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse, and yet, we're drawn to someone very different and not altogether good for us).


When I was a teen, I used to put quarters in people's parking meters that were about to run out. I did this until a police officer stopped me, threatened to give me a ticket, and told me it was illegal for me to help others this way. Ironic again? 

And, yet, there are so many examples of kindness in our everyday lives that we might overlook. Here in Portland, I’m always amazed by the number of drivers who let me into their lane when I’m turning or merging, the people who share a smile, or one lady who ran outside with a tube of toothpaste she was sure was mine (it wasn’t) that was left in the bag area of QFC. 

When you look at your life today, what can you see about the level of kindness that you’re putting out there? What about the kind of kindness you’re sharing? I’m talking about everyday kindnesses like holding a door for someone. You don’t have to pull out a Plague-infested rat or shoot yourself in the arm to experience or receive it! What authentic kindness are you offering today?  

Keywords: kindness, news, intention, purpose, health, motivation. 

Heather Schwartz, Psy.D.

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Sacred Avocado

I was cleaning my refrigerator out this morning when I noticed a crumpled paper bag stuffed between the cantaloupe and the heirloom tomatoes. It had a sag to the side and as I opened it, I saw, deep in, the avocado that I had been saving for a special salad I'd been planning. I'd bought it while it was still hard, not quite ripe, and had stuffed it into a paper bag (one of the great ways to ripen an avocado) to save for later.

Later.

Later came and was gone, and now the avocado was rotten! I'd saved it too long! I forgot to remember. I forgot to look back, deep enough into the drawer. I got caught up in my life and what was directly around me, rather than deep in the refrigerator drawer. 

Take a moment now. 

What have you forgotten? What have you been saving to express or savor until it's ripe? Or, worried it wasn't ripe enough to enjoy? What in your life needs incubation, and what needs to ripen?

Want to move toward expression in 3 steps?

1) Write your goal/wish down and break down your ultimate vision into smaller bits. Make a list of should do's, must do's, and would like to do's.

Keep in Mind: Writing goals down increases the likelihood of accomplishing them, according to a study looking at why Harvard grads make more money. It's all in the writing! Writing it down = commitment.


2) Choose ONE choice goal per day. More choices actually lead to more confusion and less action (e.g. http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/27/your-money/27shortcuts.html), while choosing one goal increases your will power to do more.

3). Make your vision visible. Put this list or a sign of your goal in your vision (hiding it in a refrigerator drawer won't do!). Work on it daily. Write it down This is why Vision Boards work. 


When you look at your unique collection of skills or wishes, talents or dreams, what one step can you take today that moves you closer to expressing your sacred avocado dreams? ;)

******
Dr. Heather Schwartz is a relational and mindfulness-oriented psychologist in Portland who delights in working with warm and expressive people seeking inspiration, joy, and connection in their lives.


Heather Schwartz, Psy.D.
http://www.heatherschwartzpsyd.com
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Keywords: goals, money, inspiration, talent, small business, start-up.

Are You an Empath?

* Is it easy for you to sense what others feel?

* Are you moved easily by others or sentimental experiences?

* Is it hard for you to watch violence on tv or in the news or to hear about upsetting experiences without feeling very upset or overwhelmed?

* Is it hard for you to distinguish between your feelings and others?

* Do strangers and friends find it easy to confide in you?

* Do you find yourself easily moved by other people’s stories with the desire to help?

* Do you pick up/feel other people’s headaches, stomachaches, etc?

* When with others, do you find yourself easily swept away by their feelings, feelings you didn’t have before you connected with them?

* Are you gentle with how you talk with others?

* Do you find yourself exhausted after being around certain people or situations, even if you enjoy these people? 

If you answered yes to four or more of these questions, you may be an Empath. But, read on for more clarity...

What is an Empath?          

     Definitions abound, but based on research and experience, but, you're probably an Empath if you have three main characteristics:

     1. You feel deeply.

     2. You easily “pick up” or feel other people’s feelings (sadness, anger, joy, etc.) or sensations (stomachaches, headaches, etc). Since feelings begin in the body as sensations (Antonio Damasio, 2000), it is understandable that you might feel emotions as sensations.

     3. You sincerely care about the welfare of others; you think carefully about what you say to others, how they might receive what you have to say, and are quick to apologize if you hurt someone's feelings, unintentionally.

As people, we instinctively “pick up” feelings by reading others’ facial expressions and special neurons in our minds, called, “mirror neurons” (discovered by a researcher named Marco Iacaboni), help us to literally mirror the feelings of others as though they are our own. However, Empaths receive a stronger dose of the feeling.

As a result, many Empaths struggle with learning to differentiate their own feelings from those of others. It’s very common to feel overwhelmed by other people’s emotions based on this ability. But, this can be learned and honed. More on this later.
  

Sensitivity and Empaths: Creating Differentiations

Many Empaths are Highly Sensitive People (Aron, 1997), who are not only sensitive to people’s feelings but also to environmental stimuli like bright lights, loud noises, strong smells, as well as crowds. However, it is possible to be a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) and not be an Empath; some HSPs are not at all sensitive to the feelings of others and not sensitive to how they express their overwhelming feelings. On the other hand, some Empaths are adept at blocking or feeling less bothered than HSPs by external stimuli unrelated to social interaction. 

Introverts prefer smaller groups, one-on-one and need alone time in order to rejuvenate after interaction with others, and derive much of their energy from quiet activities or alone time. Shy people are fearful of or cautious in social interactions. While Empaths may need alone time to replenish after being around someone with strong negative emotions, Empaths are not necessarily introverted or shy.

Many Empaths are highly intuitive. This may be because our ability to intuit often comes from a gut sense; and to have a gut sense often means to be attuned to your body and emotional self. I say often, because for some, intuition is a state of knowing that does not feel related to the body. This does not mean, however, that Empaths are psychic. Empaths are not able to determine the future. 

Narcissistic people, or people with narcissistic traits can be very sensitive to the feelings of others, but often respond with an edge because they feel overwhelmed by their emotions. You can tell this because if you are on the receiving end, their comments don’t feel good, or feel self-serving. This is not empathy, even if they are able to read your emotions carefully and correctly.

Lastly, many Adult Children of Alcoholics, Adult Children of Narcissists, Adult Children of Autistic parents (or other forms of dysfunctional families) struggle with feeling overwhelmed by their own feelings and being very attuned to the environments and others’ feelings. In their unpredictable childhoods, they adaptively learned to cope by scanning the environment, becoming what’s called, hypervigilent to their parent’s moods and behaviors through facial expressions, gestures, senses, (e.g.smell of alcohol), in order to determine how to feel and act. This ability can translate into empathy, but needs to be differentiated between a need for control and to feel safe versus an ability to naturally attune to what others feel and to care about how the other person feels. 

Many ACOA’s care deeply about others and are truly kind in the way they care for others. But part of the family structure in a dysfunctional household is to try to save or cover up for the addicted/dysfunctional parent. And, there is a difference between trying to save people and feeling their emotions.  Part of the work of therapy is to differentiate between caring vs needing to feel that everyone is okay so that the ACOA/Adult Child of dysfunctional family can feel okay. This is not empathy but a need for safety, and is understandable given this upbringing. Sometimes, people who grow up in dysfunctional families realize that their scanning of the environment has heightened their ability to be empathic. Once they feel safe enough in the world, they can relax and use this ability for good. :)

 

What’s good about being an Empath?

1. Increased capacity for connection
2. Increased capacity to appreciate the world and others
3. Greater capacity to create community given this deep caring 
4. Feel things deeply
5. Usually in touch with their senses which heightens appreciation and often, gratitude
6. Increased intuition
7. Increase creativity
8. Increased capacity to implicitly understand the feelings of others and a natural capacity to  know how to help people to feel better

Empaths care deeply about the world. People often feel safe with an Empath, knowing that Empaths truly care about them and their concerns. Empaths are typically warm towards others and expressive about their feelings. Many massage therapists and psychotherapists are at an advantage, able to use the information they receive to deepen connection and to better understand the interaction and their clients better. Empathy is a powerful tool to create implicit understanding. 

Think of the last time someone looked in your eyes and just understood what you were feeling. Now, think about how you offer that to others. It’s a gift. But, in order to keep feeling that it’s a gift, it’s imperative to be able to create good boundaries between yourself and others so that you don’t feel drained.

A huge part of this is being aware of what you feel so that you can differentiate between your feeling and others. Increased capacity for connection, gratitude, and care all aid in creating stronger health. However, if you struggle with letting feelings go, then health can be impaired.

As a therapist, I work extensively with people wanting to create better boundaries between themselves and others. Even though you already feel emotions deeply, part of this involves identifying what you feel before you enter into interaction with others. The more you feel connected to yourself and lack fear of your own feelings, (what I call, internal balance,) the more you will be able to release and replenish yourself.

Four Steps to Better Internal Balance:

1.   If you notice that you begin to feel sad, angry, or empty while interacting with another person, change your posture and take a breath in the the nose and out through the mouth, slowly.
2.  Name the emotion. It sounds simple, but naming it tames it, to paraphrase noted Interpersonal Neurobiology psychiatrist, Daniel Siegel. Take a breath.
3.  Notice how you feel in your palms and feet. Wiggle your toes. Focus on areas of warmth and coolness in your body. Take another breath.
4.  Change your focus and think about what you love in your life. Chocolate cake, the recent positive interaction with your partner, a walk you went on in Forest Park with your pet, Mushroom. Anything. The purpose is to reconnect with who you are to re-stabilize yourself.

This four-part exercise also works well even when you’re not an Empath but are feeling overwhelmed by an interaction with another person. Notice that I mention moving, breathing, and focusing your attention on your body. The purpose of this is to activate the part of your brain that is involved in sensation which grounds you both in your body and the present moment. I ask you to put a label on what you feel to invite the part of your mind that can strategize and plan, and lastly, I ask you to think of who you are to invite positive experiences into the interaction and ground you in yourself and your life. This is all purposeful! And, it works. 

If you would like individual help with this, I’m happy to meet for a consultation or individual therapy.  More blog posts to come on this topic.

References

Elaine Aron, (1997). The Highly Sensitive Person.

Antonio Damasio (2000). The Feeling of What Happens: Body and Emotion in the Making of Consciousness

Marco Iacoboni (2008). Mirroring People: The New Science of How We Connect With Others

Dr. Heather Schwartz is a relational and mindfulness-oriented psychologist who helps warm and expressive people find balance, meaning, and empowerment in their lives.

http://www.heatherschwartzpsyd.com

Keywords: empathy, empath, connection, power of connections, healing, community, women, highly sensitive people, boundaries, balance, trust, creativity, intuition.

Why Asking for Less Doesn't Bring You More

Why Asking for Less (in a Relationship) Will Not Bring You More

Have you ever gone into a restaurant and asked for the least best thing on the menu? Of course you haven’t! Yet, when you ask for say, three things from your relationship-to-be, what you’re really saying is, “I don’t deserve more. I don’t really think I can have more, or what I want isn’t out there.”

So, you’re either doubting that others have more or that you deserve more. Of course, there are those who don’t know what they want, but this post is not for them. It’s for those of you out there who feel that you can’t get what you want and so you ask for less. You think that if you play nice, and give that you’ll receive. 

Unfortunately, it doesn’t work that way. Why? Because the people you seek who offer less may also want more. They may be takers. The giver and the taker often find each other in relationships. You might tell yourself that you love giving, but if you're honest with yourself, you know that all giving and no receiving makes for an unhappy, resentful time. Plus, if you give without asking, you might have the sense that he or she is with you only because you give and not for who you are as a person. You might think that if this person really knew you, he or she would know what you want. But, the truth is, no one is a mind reader. And, then, you might feel less important, invisible, or unwanted for who you are.

You see, when you believe you can’t find what you want, you find just that: someone who is not what you want! This is based on the principle of Cognitive Dissonance in psychology. Your brain cannot hold two disparate ideas at once, so the greater of those ideas, or the one you look for in the environment, wins out. You believe you can’t find someone great even though you hope differently; you scan the environment for signs of someone not being great, and wham! You prove yourself right. 

Think a moment about the best boss or teacher you’ve had. Was it someone who expected nothing from you? When I think of the best bosses or teachers I’ve had they’ve had at least four qualities alike: 1. They expected the best from me. Not just the best, but MY best, based on my level of development and abilities. 2. They were kind when I made mistakes. 3. They walked-the-talk and were willing to get in there with me; no job was below them (one of my PE teachers used to run laps with us, encouraging us; another one sat on the sidelines and yelled. Which do you think created more enthusiasm and inspiration?). 4. They were accountable. They apologized when they made mistakes, and I knew I could depend on them to follow-through.  

Want to try an exercise on this? 

1.      Think for a moment about what you really want in a relationship (existing or hoped-for) and allow yourself to feel the want. This might take some battling with self-concept. Maybe it feels too scary to allow yourself to hope for the best. Try to allow the possibility of what you want to last for at least five minutes.

2.      Write down what you want as though it has already happened.

3.      Make it present tense, e.g. “I now have a girlfriend who treats me with loyal, love and care. We have a great time together, are passionate about each other, and I know she wants only me, and also truly wants the best for me.”

4.      Notice what feelings emerge inside you as you say this out loud. How is your breathing? Are you holding your breath? Do you tense or relax?

5.      Now, notice what you are thinking. Write that down. Especially if it’s disbelief. e.g. “I don’t believe one word of this. This will never happen to me.”

6.      Now, write down your response to the dissent or negative thoughts. What is the argument for your belief? This is about re-enacting your cognitive dissonance in your favor and letting the hope win out. e.g. “Why not me? Other people describe feeling happy in their relationships. I have a lot to offer.”

7.      Write the affirmation again and notice the strength of your negative response. Write the counter response until you notice no negative responses in yourself.

8.      Try this every day. Write the affirmation daily and notice the changes!


Heather Schwartz, Psy.D
Licensed Psychologist
www.heatherschwartzpsyd.com

Your Inner Forests

Poet, W.S Merwin writes,


"I want to tell
what the forests
were like
I will have to speak
in a forgotten language."


What forests have you forgotten in yourself?
In other words, what aspects of your life have you loved and forgotten to include to make your life more rich and lush?


How do you get back to what's green and new inside of yourself?


I realized as I was reading a blog about changing around habits to make them more enjoyable, that I hadn't written for a long time, and that writing, and reading poetry remind me of my inner forests, which is how this blog entry came to be.


What haven't you done in a while that connects you with your inner aliveness?


Take a moment and reflect and then, if you'd like, make a plan to go do it. Make time for it in your day. Schedule it, if you need to. Sometimes, (according to Charles Duhigg in his book, The Power of Habit), we have to switch around the times we do the things (old habits) in order to benefit from what we enjoy doing. e.g. reading at the gym vs setting aside time to read at night.


Write down everything you love to do and try to do one of these per day.


OR


Paint, draw or visualize yourself drawing in the green all around you, nourishing your body, cleansing away any feeling that does not need to be within you, letting yourself feel replenished.


OR


Try the 4 N's each day:
1. Do something Nice for someone
2. Nurture yourself.
3. Be in Nature
4. Do something Novel


OR
Switch around your routine so that you do what you love while you can focus on it. 
Examples?
Talk to friends only when you can really pay attention and not do something else at the same time.
Eat mindfully: smell, chew slowly, and truly savor your food.
Read when you can truly focus and not just at the gym. Better yet, grab a bunch of those trashy magazines you might love and make a time in your day solely for reading trashy magazines!


Enjoy your forests!

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Just 90 Seconds

Emotions are scary. Especially the negative ones. No one wants to feel them. We fear we'll feel them forever, cry forever, if we experience them. We bury our sadness, stuff our anger, crowd out our fear. And, yet, new research by neuroanatomist, Jill Bolte Taylor, Ph.D., suggests that it only takes 90 seconds, yes, just 1 and 1/2 minutes -- or less -- to experience the chemical process running through our body.


Taylor calls it "The 90 Second Rule."


Say you're feeling anxious about an upcoming review at work or a school paper. Rather than focusing on the story of the anxiety, focus instead on the feeling. You can focus on body sensations, or just the sense of being anxious. You can time yourself, have someone time you, or just estimate the time. Breathe deeply. 

Keep focusing on the feeling, accepting it all. If your mind wanders, bring it back to focusing on the feeling. The feeling might initially increase. Then, it fades. That is, unless you're replaying the story or narrative around the event. But, why would you want to strengthen the neural pathways in your brain which create unhappiness when you can experience relief?

Most people, in under 90 seconds, experience relief and openness; no need to feel scared of the big, "bad" feelings anymore.

It's empowering!